So today is the last day of the 30 paintings in 30 days challenge. I love where this has ended up–this zoomed out portrait of morning light on yellow daisies. My issue now is that I was so much waiting for this to be over so I could attend to everything else…but now I realize that has been part of my problem all along. I need to continue, but it does seem unrealistic to think I can keep this up. So I’m not sure what I’m going to do. I see how pushing myself to do “one more” has gotten me clearer on what I’m “trying to say” and “looser” in a way that I like. I don’t know if there’s really any other way to achieve “making it look easy” than doing the hard work of showing up as often as possible….rehearsing over and over until it looks effortless. But there are so many things I’ve had to push to the side…things I typically do to “take care of myself.” I don’t think it has to be all or nothing…but part of me does…I hate to break the daily habit, but I think I may need to do so, and then see if I can find a way to bring it back in a way that makes sense.